Blog Dare..There Are Aspects of Myself

I’m taking on the Blog Dare . So far, I’ve managed to stick with it each day. I’m treating it like you would the Five Minute Friday posts because I want to ensure that I actually share a part of my soul with you. I hope you enjoy reading these posts.

Aspects of Myself That I Am Proud Of

There are some aspects of myself that I’m actually proud of. However, those are actually few in comparison to the amount of things that I would actually love to change about myself. I’m proud of the fact that I have managed to actually stay alive despite the many hardships that I’ve endured in my life. Trust me when I say there were times I didn’t plan to come out of a situation alive.

I’m proud of the fact that despite two failed marriages, I have managed to land on my feet still standing and able to come out ahead. I even managed to obtain my associates degree in accounting even though I don’t actively use it except for our own personal business needs. I’m almost done obtaining my bachelor’s degree in project manager, but I have no clue when I’ll take my final 8 classes.

Aspects of Myself That I’m Disappointed In 

I have so many things about myself that disappoint me. The first thing that comes to mind is my weight. I have tried everything under the sun to lose weight. Shoot, I have barely ate a darn thing in the past nine months, and yet I’ve lost at max 10 pounds. I wish there was a magic pill that would help me lose this darn weight that I could afford. However, that doesn’t seem to be happening anytime soon. So, I need to learn how to be proud with the body size I am now. At least one thing is consistent, in the past thirteen years minus that little bit of luxury while I was pregnant with Zeva (and shortly after her birth) I’ve been roughly the same size.

I’m disappointed in the fact that I can’t get organized enough to keep everything I want to get accomplished in a day on track. There is always something that falls through the cracks. The bad thing is I have planners galore that are filled out, my emails are well organized, and I even make to-do lists for the day on top of all of that. However, housework seems to pile up on me before I can turn my head.

I’d LOVE and I mean LOVE to live in a house where everything has a nice neat place for it. I’d LOVE, LOVE to have everyone put things back in their proper place when they are done with them. For the past almost seven years, that has definitely gone by the wayside in my home. I have to play seek and find game for almost everything. (Even my stuff seems to get legs and walk away from its spot of honor.)  My house is USUALLY presentable for company and others please don’t think I live in a rats nest because I don’t. It’s just not as neat and organized as I would like. (My old associates will tell you that my office was always organized and you could easily get ANYTHING that was needed or desired from the office with complete ease.) One day though, when I’m not chasing little kids around, I do believe I’ll get my house in order the way I want it. (Bless Del’s heart, he tries just as hard as I do to get order in our home, but when we work from home and teach our kids from home it’s hard to keep things in order all the time.)

I’ve been trying desperately to be more patient and understanding. That seems to go out the window almost every day. However, now that Del is back home that definitely seems to be helping because I’m not dealing with this kids by myself anymore. I’m able to focus on one task at a time instead of feeling like I’m being pulled in a hundred directions at once while dealing with someone fussing.

I also want to be better prepared to cook healthier meals too. I am terrible at planning out meals for the family. Del has always had to remind to thaw things out for the next day. He’s better at planning meals than I am. It annoys him, but he knows this annoying trait of mine has always been an issue. So, he has learned to work around it.

What are aspects about yourself that you love and what do you want to improve upon?