Blog Dare.. It’s The Private Selection…

I  told you this was a DARE. It’s the private selection…

Oh wow, I am almost afraid to share with you what comes to my mind right away with this topic selection. However, I decided to take this dare on full force.

The private selection of my mind is filled with erotic thoughts and dreams. They all involve my husband, and some of them I’ve acted out. However, my imagination is quite intense.

I use to read erotic stories that were worse than Fifty Shades of Gray ever thought about being. Yet, my own mind created scenes that were even more heart pounding than what I read. I have been in so many different situations that made me uncomfortable and miserable.

As a result, I would literally dream up how  my man would make me feel like a truly desirable woman instead of a piece of meat for someone from those lonely dark situations I lived through. I always longed for sex to be so much more than just an act. My husband does a remarkable job of making sure that happens. However, there are still times when it’s totally raw and intensely full of fire and passion.

I also think about all the little secrets I was forced to keep when I was growing up. Secrets of my abuse, secrets of how my mom was abused, secrets of affairs I’ve seen, and all of the other secrets that were hidden behind closed doors. I hated living a life full of secrets!

I got so use to having to live like that it became the norm for me. When I moved out of my Mom’s house I swore I’d NEVER go back to a life of secrets again. I still don’t live a life of secrets. I refuse to! That’s why it amazes me how many people accuse me of having them. With having my in-laws less than 200 ft away from me, who pop in unannounced so much it’s not even funny, it would literally be impossible to have any secrets anyways.

I think about all of the private selections that people read and watch when they don’t think anyone is watching. I think about all of the private thoughts people have that are similar to mine or even totally different, but  yet they are still afraid to express them or make them a reality.

Some people dream of having a totally different life full of success, but yet, they don’t do anything to make it happen due to having more fear than desire. They have fear crippling them from being all they can be. In some cases, they don’t think they are worth it.

As you can see a lot of different things come to mind when I think of the private selection.

What comes to mind for you when  you think of the private selection?